Category Archives: BusyMe

Meditation & Mental Health Awareness
May
2nd

May is Mental Health Awareness month.

Mental Health Awareness Month

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I made a note of this months and months ago, because I thought it would be the perfect time to talk more openly about my anxiety disorder as part of my own effort to fight stigma and raise awareness. I had this whole plan to write about everything from being diagnosed to hiding my medicine and lying about what it was, to using yoga to cope without medication, to learning to talk more openly about it and encouraging others to do the same.

Then, (ironically) I spent the majority of yesterday like this:

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I haven’t had a really significant meltdown in a while, so I was probably due for one. The stress of finals really just got to me all of a sudden. I think it’s the fact that this is my last time, so if for some reason I have a bad semester, there’s no making up for it later. Once again, it made me thankful that I have John in my life and that he is a) so understanding, b) has learned how to handle me when I get like that, and c) knows exactly what to do and what I need.

Anyway, that’s not really important, you’re not here to read about my neurotic, over-achiever tendencies. The point is, I still want to write that post, and I still want to share it this month, but it’s not ready today. So in the meantime, please check out the Bring Change 2 Mind website, and sign the pledge to help end stigma.

And, if you’d like to do something to help improve your own mental health this month, my blend Jan is hosting a meditation challenge.

It’s just 5 minutes a day (more if you’d like), however and whenever you can! I know Jan uses the Chopra app. I’m trying out the Omvana app and using some of the meditations on yogaglo.

Not convinced you should give meditation a try? This infographic summarizes some of the science (click to expand), but I’d encourage you to do your own research too (since I didn’t have enough time to be thorough for this post #bloggerfail).

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P.S. I have a pile of emails and comments waiting for me, responses are coming your way soon! <3

Questions: Are you comfortable talking about mental health? Will you take the pledge to end stigma? Have you tried meditation? (and are you joining Jan’s challenge??)

 

Loving lately – food, leggings, & TV
Apr
18th

How is spring break already over? This week seriously FLEW by. I mean, technically I still have the weekend, but still.

It’s been a while since I’ve done a “loving lately” post, and since some new and fabulous things have made their way into my life, I thought it was high time I share them with you.

1. Lemon hummus. I’ll be honest, I’ve been in a bit of a rut with hummus. Normally, I can’t get enough, but I’ve been kind of over it. But, I can’t eat falafel without hummus, so when I was making Amy’s for dinner, I had to have some, so I decided to mix it up.

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Lemon hummus, where have you been all my life?? I just want to sit down and eat the whole tub with a spoon.

2. Orphan Black.

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Have you seen this show?? I really want to watch it when I saw the previews for the first season. The second season premiers this weekend, and I found the first season for free on Amazon (with Prime). John and I binge watched the whole thing in like three days! It is non-stop, edge-of-your-seat, can’t stop watching epicness.

3. Oatmeal. I know, I hate oatmeal. I’ve always hated oatmeal. My oatmeal for people who hate oatmeal was ok, but it wasn’t something I craved. My newest oatmeal concoction eliminates the boogeryness that is traditional oats and is pure deliciousness.

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4. Jiva leggings. Remember how I won one of the February yoga challenges on instagram? Well a couple weeks ago I got my prize, my Jiva leggings!

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I’m so excited that Jiva is sponsoring the challenge Paige and I are hosting this month, because these are seriously the most comfortable leggings I have ever owned, not to mention they are gorgeous!

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It feels like a second skin, and unlike every other pair of pants I’ve ever owned, they don’t dig in at the waist. They posted a teaser picture on ig of shorts too. I’ll definitely be treating myself to some of those once they come out.

Oooook, time to go bury my nose in the books (at least until the Orphan Black premier tomorrow!!!!).

P.S. Yesterday, John and I made a random trip to Boston to look at an apartment. The one we looked at a few weeks ago fell through, but we’re excited about this one so cross your fingers for us!

Questions: Have you seen Orphan Black? What’s the last show you binge-watched? Any fun foods you’re obsessed with lately?

Our NY bucket list
Apr
16th

If everything goes according to plan, John and I will be moving to Boston one month from tomorrow! If it doesn’t, we’ll be moving in a month and a half. Either way, our time in New York is quickly coming to an end.

There are so many things to do in this area – touristy and not so touristy – that we haven’t made time for. Once we knew for sure we would be leaving, we started working on a list of things to do before we go.

Our original plan was to do them throughout the year. Unfortunately, at this point time is flying by so fast that I don’t think we’ll be able to get to them all. This post should really be called “things I’d do in NY if I had enough time.” We should be able to manage at least a few though, especially with my parents coming to visit for graduation.

OUR NYC BUCKET LIST (in no particular order)

1. Go to the TODAY Show. We watch every morning and have for years. We just have to go at least once!

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2. Visit the Statue of Liberty and Ellis Island. The classics. I went to the Statute of Liberty once when I was really little, but I don’t really remember, so it doesn’t really count.

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3. Get tickets to the Daily Show and the Colbert Report. And go, obviously. I’ve heard this is practically impossible so it’s extremely unlikely to happen, but I’m a huge fan and would basically die if I got to see Jon Stewart in real life. *swoon*

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4. Walk across the Brooklyn Bridge. Another classic.

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5. Take the dogs to Central Park. John has been wanting to do this basically since we moved here, so we have to make it happen.

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6. See a Broadway show. The only reason I haven’t already seen lots of shows is that I’m cheap and John isn’t particularly interested. But I have to see at least one!

7. Visit Philadelphia. We’re so close, and I doubt we’ll ever be this close again. This is another one I don’t think we’ll be able to fit in at this point, but I really wanted to see the major historical sites.

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8. Hike at Bear Mountain. Bear mountain state park is seriously 30 minutes from us and looks so beautiful. We actually tried to go once, but there was an accident or something and we were stuck in traffic for hours before giving up and turning around. I really want to get some hiking in ASAP so maybe after finals and before graduation we’ll get a morning hike in or something.

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Questions: Are there big “things to do” where you live that you’ve still never done? New Yorkers, are you embarrassed for me that my list is so touristy?

More blogging self-reflection
Apr
11th

Happy Friday! Next week is spring break. Wooooooohoo, party hard-y! And by party hard-y, I mean study hard-y because finals are basically upon us. Annnd I have to complete a long and complicated application for admission to the bar. Yay?

I debated sharing today’s post because I felt better after writing it, and it helped clarify some things in my mind, but I wasn’t sure it would have any value to anyone else. In case it does, I’m sharing it anyway.

I know you’re all probably beyond “over” my prolonged blogging existential crisis.

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I keep writing posts about my revelations, and at first I feel better, but then a few days go by and I’m back in a funk. I’m not feeling as inspired as I did when I first started. Luckily, I think I may have identified the missing piece (or pieces) that are keeping me from just being myself and loving blogging again.

Since I started blogging, I have definitely changed. In a lot of ways, it has been for the good. Blogging makes me want to be “better.” To set the best example possible. The problem with this is that sometimes I am not the best. I’m just a human being human. But I’ve noticed that in my day to day life, I’ve started letting the blog dictate my decisions. And by that I mean that if there is something I want to do but wouldn’t want to share (and wouldn’t want to hide because I would feel phony or unauthentic), I don’t do it. You could see this as a great thing. It pushes me to be better. It holds me accountable. But it also gets frustrating.

I think the real question is why should I feel uncomfortable sharing my health choices in the first place? Hannah (Clean Eating Veggie Girl) had a great post on this last week that really resonated with me even though the causes of pressure are a little different. I love the blogging community. Truly love. But I also feel a lot of pressure. Pressure to be like everyone else and to think like everyone else. I learn and grow so much by reading other blogs and getting to know other bloggers, but I don’t write as freely as I used to, and I don’t feel as free as I used to.

All of this pressure is self-inflicted (and probably related to my “real life” awkwardness and social anxiety), so I’m hoping to combat it by asking myself this question: What would you write if no one was reading? Not because I don’t care about my readers (I do!! So much!!), but because I think it will remind me to let go and be me instead of trying to fit myself into the box that I think I should be in.

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Thanks as always for listening to my rambles. <3

Question: Bloggers, does the accountability that comes from blogging pressure your decisions? Non-bloggers, do you find value in reading about healthy living from people who aren’t perfect, or who are still experimenting and figuring things out?

Vampire chipmunk + Liebster love
Apr
9th

This is hands-down the most bizarre-o post title I’ve ever had. Perhaps I should explain.

Wisdom teeth out on Monday = swollen cheeks and blood. Too much? Ok moving on.

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Best husband ever, am I right?

So far the recovery is going better than expected. I’m not in too much pain and I’ve hardly taken any pain killers. The only bad thing is the hunger! I eat a lot of pudding and yogurt and it makes it hard to feel full. Today I’m supposed to teach Zumba (and am officially allowed to exercise again) so we will see how that goes. I probably should have gotten a sub, but I don’t always make good choices…

Moving on to the Liebster! One of my best blends Amy nominated me for the Liebster award, a fun award that helps you learn more about bloggers and find new ones. Amy has been a hugely positive influence on me in blogging and in life. She is sweet and supportive and always there to listen. If you haven’t checked out her blog you absolutely should!

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Technically, I’m supposed to ask my own questions and nominate more bloggers, but I’m being a jerk rebel and am just going to answer Amy’s questions.

1. Who/what inspires you in the kitchen? Who/what inspires you in the gym? (or other fitness space)

My fellow bloggers inspire me in the kitchen! Seriously, if it wasn’t for Pinterest and blogs, John and I would still be eating our rotation of pasta with Ragu, ramen, and rice and eggs for dinner.

As for the gym, I guess I’m mostly inspired by myself? Not in an egotistical way, just that my workouts are for me, and I’ve found that by focusing on myself and not others I feel better about myself and more easily avoid the comparison trap.

In yoga, I’m inspired by the community on instagram! I have met so many amazing people, and even more than their pictures, I’m inspired by their words.

2. What is the strangest thing in your gym bag (or purse) right now… and why is it there?!

Narcotics. For the pain! Don’t worry I’m not moonlighting as a drug dealer.

3. If you were stranded on an island and could only take three foods, what three would you take and why?

1) Ice cream because it’s my favorite food, 2) zbars because I have eaten them everyday for over a year and never get sick of them, and 3) salad (yes I know that isn’t really a single food) because I know I’ll be craving it to balance out the ice cream.

4. Savory or sweet – and why?!

Sweet all day every day (see question 3). I’m pretty sure I have a mouthful of the world’s sweetest teeth (minus 4… get it?? ha). I can’t comprehend people who say they prefer salty to sweet. Like, what? How?

5. How have you changed since beginning your blog?

This is a somewhat loaded question at the moment and I have a post planned for later this week on this topic. For now I’ll say that blogging makes me evaluate my choices with greater scrutiny. I pride myself on being transparent about health and fitness related choices that I’m making. I hold myself to a higher standard than I used to so I can practice what I preach. Usually this is a good thing, but not always.

Blogging has also connected me to people who help me grow in my healthy living journey by sharing their own stories. I know that’s vague, but I’d have to write a book to be more specific. <3

Questions: Choose one (or more!) of the above to answer!

No plan + small victories
Apr
7th

Hello friends! How was your weekend?

porch yoga feetI feel like things have been a whirlwind around here lately. With the semester ending and graduation and the move coming up, we’re all over the place. This weekend we were in Boston to look at apartments (I think we found one, cross your fingers that we get it!) and for one of my best friend’s bridal showers! It was so amazing to meet all her family and friends, I’m so grateful to be a part of her bridal party.

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Normally, I share a plan for the week on Sundays, but yesterday I didn’t, for two reasons. First, I’m getting my wisdom teeth out today and I have no idea how the healing will go. It seemed silly to plan out meals I may not be able to eat and workouts I may not be able to do. Second, in response to my post last week, the wisest maven I know suggested that maybe letting things go even more might help. I can’t say I’m optimistic that it will help, but this seemed like the perfect week to give “no plan” a try.

I got another great piece of advice from Amy to focus on small victories, so that’s what I’ve been trying to do for the past few days (and plan to continue to do). On Thursday, I realized late afternoon after my workout that my food intake for the day had been really low. It triggered the old high, but after some internal battling, I convinced myself to eat extra before dinner because I knew I knew it was the right choice for my health. In the past, a light day like that might have triggered days or even weeks of restricting to “keep it up.” Small victories can be big ones. 🙂

Questions: Any small victories in your life lately? Should I be worried about my wisdom teeth recovery?

Growing? Slipping? Or just addicted to dieting?
Apr
1st

One of my fav bloggers Arman had a great post last week about what he called the “diet mentality.”

I loved reading his take on it, and I thought the way he described it, as a mentality, was just perfect.

This is something I’ve been struggling a lot with lately, but I haven’t written about it because I didn’t know how to put it into words. I’ve been feeling uneasy, even unhappy. Reading Arman’s post really helped me get my thoughts together and put my finger on the problem:

I think I miss dieting.

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It’s been about a year since I stopped counting calories and gave up my “food rules” and almost a year since I stopped weighing myself consistently. These are supposed to be big accomplishments and milestones towards a healthier, happier life. In some ways, they have been. I’ve talked about how freeing it is not to be constantly obsessed with food, with what I “can” or “can’t” eat, or how much, or when, and on and on. It’s nice to eat without a constant calculation running through my mind: what I’ve eaten, what I plan to eat, how much exercise I’ve done and plan to do and whether that will keep me on track.

But if I’m being really honest with myself, there are things I miss about about it. Things that I crave. I’m a person who needs structure. Someone who plans their day with a color coordinated google calendar and geeks out over task management apps. I always, always, need a plan. For all parts of my life. Don’t get me wrong, I’m flexible, I change my plan on a minute by minute basis sometimes. I just have to have one. Planning is how I manage stress. And not having that when it comes to my food stresses me out. I miss the rules and the rituals.

I want to be clear that I’m not talking about the out of control feeling that triggers old demons and relapses. This feels very different. That is a high stress, panicked, deep need to control and restrict. This is a low-level, mild unhappiness. This is my Type-A personality and its inability to cope with anything haphazard or unclear. That said, since I’ve never been through formal recovery, I can’t say for sure whether this is related to my history or normal for people who thrive on rules.

The part of me that desperately wants to have a healthy, uncomplicated relationship with food wants to keep doing what I’m doing: making healthy choices but eating with freedom by listening to hunger cues and honoring my cravings. But the part of me that is uneasy and unhappy wants something to change. I’ve spent weeks and weeks trying to figure out what or how to change while respecting my food philosophy. The result has been a stalemate, and I keep catching myself dwelling on all those old habits, and even dreaming up new ones (but not putting them into action).

It is hard for me and stressful for me to eat without rules, and I don’t know how to balance that against the unhealthy mental and emotional consequences of eating with rules. I don’t know how to reconcile the two issues. Maybe I can’t. Maybe I’m just addicted to dieting and if I give it enough time, it will eventually start to feel better. I can’t figure out if I’m struggling to shake the diet mentality and this is just part of the journey, if it’s a sign of something more fundamentally wrong, or if I can incorporate some rules again to satisfy that craving without taking it too far.

I don’t have any answers right now, but I always want to be open and honest here, and this is where I am right now. I know it’s a cliche, but it’s a journey, and I’m still figuring things out. Thank you for listening, writing always helps me think things through <3

No questions, just your thoughts.

Happy 1st birthday, BusyBod!
Mar
28th

Exactly one year ago today, I clicked upload on my very first post.

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I have to admit, it was terrifying. I was anxious about putting myself out there into the interwebs. I had no idea if anyone would ever read what I was writing. I was afraid anyone who did would scoff, laugh, or generally brush me off as someone with nothing of value to contribute. But I did it anyway, thanks almost entirely to the support of my superstar husband.

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Instead, slowly but surely, I found myself welcomed into an amazing community of people who share my passions and interests. So in honor of my blogiversary, I’m taking some time to reflect on the past year:

I posted my first workout after countless hours trying to figure out how to make a graphic. I got better and better at putting the graphics together, and eventually graduated from powerpoint to PicMonkey so they would start looking semi-professional. Then I took it to video and launched my Zumba plan on the Cody App.

I confessed my hatred for running, multiple times, and to my surprise I wasn’t shunned!

I was spotlighted by a fellow blogger for the first time, and then wrote my first guest post, helping me feel even more connected to this community.

I conquered my first Spartan Race, learned some important lessons, and then did another one.

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I wrote my first meal plan, and through weekly planning (and forcing myself to cook), I’ve slowly but surely gotten more comfortable in the kitchen.

After a lot of reflection, I decided to follow my heart and allow yoga to be a bigger part of my life.

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I’ve opened up about hard topics and eventually shared my story, and I’ve been overwhelmed by the support. I’ve connected with bloggers and readers through comments, email, and social media. I’ve made blends, too many to list, but you know who you are. 😉

There are a lot of “I” statements up there, but this is really about you. This blog may be my space, but I’m here for you, and because I hope in some way something I say here will help you or change you or affect you in a positive way. Recently, I received a thank you email from one of my Zumba students that literally had me in tears. It was such an important and powerful reminder of why I started teaching, and why teaching made me want to write. The ability to have an impact on someone else’s health and fitness journey, no matter how small, is such a blessing, and I’m thankful.

So thank YOU for reading, for showing up over the past year (even if it’s your first time here 😉 ), and for always listening. I don’t say it enough, but I’m incredibly grateful. Here’s to what I hope will be many more years. <3

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Life lately {in two words}
Mar
24th

I always love when Jan does her “two words” posts, and since I’m honestly not really in the mood to write much, I thought it would be a fun way to do an update. Since she suggested it, I don’t think she’ll mind. 😉 The idea is you share a bunch of pictures, and each picture’s caption can only be two words. It’s also a fun little challenge for me, so here it goes.

Loooong Day

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Getting Sick

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Cancelled Class 🙁

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Getting Stronger

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Happy Place

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Almost DONE!

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Busted Bracket

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Proud Host!!!

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NEW Challenge! <3

April Yoga Challenge

{announcing soon!}

Questions: Life lately in (sets of) two words? Is your bracket busted? Up for an April yoga challenge??

Reading, date night, Ashtanga, & Cosmos
Mar
10th

So, I was kind of planning to do fewer weekend recap posts, but then that was all I was in the mood to write about last night so, that’s what you’re getting! Hope you don’t mind 😉

In the interest of full disclosure, I have to tell you I spent the majority of my weekend reading the Selection and the Elite. I started the Selection Saturday morning and finished the Elite Sunday afternoon (I’m a fast reader). Davida recommended them when I shared my nerdy reading list, so I blame her – not for the unexpected use of my weekend, but for not telling me the third book still wasn’t out! This is serious. How am I supposed to make it until May waiting for the final book?! I’m very distraught. Needless to say, I’ve already pre-ordered so it will auto-deliver to my Kindle the second it’s available.

I don’t know what it’s like where you are, Saturday was the first really warm day of the year and it was glorious. John and I took advantage by going for a run. It was just three miles, but my pace was a little quicker than it was on my run two weeks ago. I’ve only run a handful of times since late summer, so I’m happy to be quickly working my way back to where I was.

It also meant it was finally warm enough for some outdoor yoga!

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Just a quick pose, but I was still super excited about it. Soon my whole practice will be out on our deck again and I can’t wait. 🙂

Saturday night, in a rare move, we went out to dinner! John and I tend to be… how should I say it… budget conscious. But we’re decided a night out once a week is worth paying a bit more for a meal.

We went to the Bridgeview Tavern, where we’ve been once before, and I had the harvest salad, which is heaven! Mixed greens, dried cranberries, candied walnuts, goat cheese, and mint walnut vinaigrette. Drooling.

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I also ambitiously ordered a sangrita (sangria with some fun extras) – which I ended up having to share. Then we split a brownie sundae for dessert.

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Guys, this was possibly the best brownie of my life.

Sunday was mostly catching up on work, but for my workout I had an amazing Ashtanga yoga practice. It was a slightly shortened version of the Primary series (to squeeze into an hour) with Kathryn Budig (she’s amaaazing), on yogaglo as usual. Ashtanga is an incredibly rigorous, highly disciplined practice.

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I knew it was physically demanding, but it still surprised me. I’ve been very curious about Ashtanga so I was excited to try it out. Ashtanga yogis solely practice Ashtanga, so I’m not sure it would ever be the right fit for me (I like to mix it up), but I do think I’d like to include it at least once a week.

Sunday night was the premier of Cosmos with Neil deGrasse Tyson (such a genius! *swoon*).

Fun fact: I have two science degrees. How I got from science to law is a long story, but I love science more than I love almost anything. I love the law, but science will always be my first and truest love, and I miss it every day.

I was so excited… and then promptly had a meltdown over my life decisions. Not to worry, this is a roughly bi-monthly occurrence, and in the end someone always talks me down and we conclude that law school was the right choice. Don’t tell John, but I have secret plans to still go after a PhD someday.

Questions: Any outdoor fitness adventures for you this weekend? Did you watch Cosmos? Anything exciting happening in your life this week?

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